Day 40 ~ The Notebook

“The scariest thing about distance is that you don’t know whether they’ll miss you or forget you.”

This is honestly something I struggle with in my life. I would even go as far to say it is one of my biggest insecurities. I grew up in a military town, so was use to people entering, than leaving my life. But I can say that it never does get any easier even after all these years. One of the most difficult parts I found was in creating what seemed like great friendships and relationships, but once one of us moved that connection fizzled through time and distance.

It is impossible to know who is going to stick around in your life once the factor of distance is added. Relationships can be difficult enough to maintain with others as we go through life, but adding that separation makes it even more difficult. When someone leaves, my biggest fear is that they will forget and/or replace me in their life. And while it often feels like I am always waiting for that moment when that person finally forgets me, I have also had the chance to discover who is worth keeping up relationships with. Of the many people who have entered my life over the years, a precious few have remained a constant and I know those are the people I want in my life. I may not get to see and talk to them everyday, weeks may pass in between communication, but I know they are there for me and I would be there for them. A favorite quote of mine is:

“When people walk away from you…Let them go…Your destiny is never tied to anyone who leaves you, and it doesn’t mean they are bad people.It just means that their part in your story is over.”

I won’t regret those people in my life that are no longer a part of it. While they were part of my life, they were worth it and I am grateful for them and the time we shared. Every person that has been in my life, regardless on how long that time was, has helped shape me into who I am. Some in the most miniscule of ways and some who will never realize the huge impact they have had. It will probably always be difficult when I am separated from those I care about, and I may always wonder, ‘are they missing me like I am them, or have they forgotten all about me’. But I want to let go of that scared feeling of losing someone to distance, and instead be grateful for those who care about me enough to continue to be a part of my life and are still there regardless of that distance 😀