Day 53 ~ Evermore

“I guess by now I should know enough about loss to realize that you never really stop missing someone-you just learn to live around the huge gaping hole of their absence.” 

Losing someone, through death, separation or distance, is never easy. For awhile they were such a part of your life whether small or large. Maybe this was a person who you saw everyday, someone you had some kind of ritual or shared time with. A person who at the time they were in your life you never thought of when they wouldn’t be there anymore because they were just always there. Even when you know it won’t be forever, because really what is, it doesn’t change the feeling that you are missing a part of your life as one may feel towards a phantom limb. It feels like something should be there, but there isn’t. The moments and times you took for granted when you had that person in your presence now feels like an empty hole.

I often think these feeling will go away, but the slightest object, word, event, can trigger a memory and I will feel myself missing someone so bad. I will hear a song on the radio, stumble across a picture on the internet that reminds me of a joke, see something that reminds me of the person because somehow it was ours.

But even when the feeling of missing someone hurts, I have to go on. I have no intention of forgetting them, but I instead find ways to fill the empty feeling until it doesn’t hurt as much. Sometimes I will still be struck with that intense feeling of missing someone even after years at the slightest moment, but these moments lessen over time and I find I can still go on even though I will always miss them.



So what are your thoughts…

Whew! I have made it to day 50! While I am loving choosing my favorite book quotes, I have to admit it isn’t easy keeping up with it everyday, but I love a good challenge 🙂

For anyone who has read all of the last 50 quotes you may have noticed that some posts have just the quote, while others have a quote followed by my thoughts of the quote. I was wondering what everyone thought. Do you prefer the posts that just have a quote, or do you like the posts with a quote and my thoughts. I would love to get some feedback 🙂


Day 48 ~ Devil May Cry

“She didn’t understand that. “How can anyone be afraid of love?” “How can they not?” His face was completely aghast. “When you love someone… truly love them, friend or lover, you lay your heart open to them. You give them a part of yourself that you give to no one else, and you let them inside a part of you that only they can hurt—you literally hand them the razor with a map of where to cut deepest and most painfully on your heart and soul. And when they do strike, it’s crippling—like having your heart carved out. It leaves you naked and exposed, wondering what you did to make them want to hurt you so badly when all you did was love them. What is so wrong with you that no one can keep faith with you? That no one can love you? To have it happen once is bad enough… but to have it repeated? Who in their right mind would not be terrified of that?”    

Love is a scary thing, not just romantic love but any kind of love. To love someone you have to open your heart, which can leave it vulnerable. They say it is the ones that ar closest to us that can hurt us the worst, and that is true. When this happens, someone you loved who has hurt you, you are left with so many questions to why. If a stranger or an enemy did this to you it wouldn’t be bad, but for someone who you love, who you gave access to your heart to hurt you are left in confusion of what you did wrong and why they chose to hurt you. And once you have been hurt, the idea of letting someone else in seems insane because the chance of repeating that hurt is unbearable. As difficult as is, sometimes you have to decide if the chance of finding and keeping love is worth the risk of having your heartbroken. You may shield your heart from hurt, but in doing so you also shield it from love.